It’s
now been six months since I returned from Guinea. Going along with the barrage
of clichéd feelings I’m experiencing, I must admit change is hard. Since
leaving Guinea, I’ve seen 10 other countries, rediscovered my loving family,
started two jobs, applied to grad school, and I’ve never been so restless in my
entire life.
I may
post another, more cathartic, blog in the future, but I still want to keep my
promise to my “readers” (I think they’re out there) about staying positive. So
instead of a weepy, emotion-filled story about my feelings, I’m going to write
about a weepy, emotion-filled story about my students and my last day of
school.
It’s no
secret that teaching was not my true calling in Guinea, but I dedicated no less
time or effort because of that. My school was my primary goal and I did my best
to keep it that way, though malaria work was a close second. The students of Le
Collège
de Wonkifong still spent two full school years with me, and for my 8th-10th
graders that was a lot of time. I went from a scrambled mess of papers and
chalk dust to a composed educator striving to reach my students and push them
to achieve more. I can remember so many instances of walking away from a full
day of teaching just feeling defeated and wondered whether anyone learned
anything that day. After my last walk home from school, I’ll never wonder that
again.
The day
started like any other, I woke up, ate some oatmeal, drank my instant coffee
and left Monkey asleep in the living room. Heading to school I knew that it was
probably my last day. I say “probably” because the end date of classes in
Guinea isn’t a firework-finale like we know it in the States. Instead, the
students gradually stop showing up until the teachers give up teaching and
admit that there are no more exams for the year. On this particular day, I
figured I’d be one of a few teachers to actually show up. I found I was wrong,
I was the only teacher there that day. With the lack of educators, I combined
all of 10th grade (normally two classes of about 45) with all of 9th
grade (one class of normally 55) to make up one class of 45 students.
Feeding
off of my excitement for the culmination of two years of teaching, I had spent
the few days prior trying to think of fun activities followed with an Oscar
winning speech for a “drop the mic and walk away” moment. I had nothing. As I began
the class, I kept to routine and wrote the “Warm-up Activity” on the board.
These questions are normally pretty easy, based off of what I had taught the
week before, and most of all, made up on the fly. I began writing an English
question about articles and verbs when I thought of a better question: “Qu’est-ce
que vous avez appris de Monsieur Issiaga?” (What
have you learned from Mr. Issiaga?) I explained that I wanted them to write
what they had learned from me over the past two years. Not just chemistry and English
but anything at all. I followed it up with the fact that I wouldn’t read their
responses until I was back home in America. I was proud to see most students
putting in a lot of effort to their responses. A few even asked if they could
use more than half a sheet of paper, which was the standard for Warm-up
Activities. I gave them extra time, using it instead to collect my thoughts and
plan last hour as Mr. Issiaga.
Please ignore the mustache. |
After
the story was done, I knew it was no use trying to keep them much longer. I
joked around with them for a bit then felt I had their attention enough to give
my little speech. Based off of my earlier question, I began to tell them what I
hoped they had learned from me.
“To
all of you, I hope you have learned some chemistry and some English. I hope you’ve
learned that education is important and that it can lead you to something
better than what you have now.
To
the girls, I hope you have learned that I believe in you. That you are as smart
and as important as any boy in this classroom. I hope I’ve inspired you to
reach higher because I know what you are capable of when you try your hardest.
***eyes starting to tear up***
To
the boys, I hope I’ve taught you respect. How to respect each other, how to
respect the girls, and how to respect yourself. ***voice rising as I hold back
tears***
I
hope that you all will never forget me because you have taught me so much and I
know I will never forget you. No matter where I go, I will always remember my
students from Le Collège de Wonkifong. ***crying**”
I took
a depth breath to collect myself before I went to grab my bag. As I stood still
for a few seconds, I noticed how many students, boys and girls, were crying
with me. This touched me deeply, knowing how hard it is for Guineans to weep.
They cry out all the time, but to come to tears is something that makes them
thoroughly uncomfortable. But now, I had students openly crying at their desks.
Finally, one student raised his hand timidly. A bit surprised, I called on
Alseny Mariama Camara. He asked me if he could give me a hug. Laughing, I said
of course, explaining that a group hug would be totally normal for this
situation in America. I was quickly surrounded by the entire class. Each
pushing in closer trying to give me an individual hug. I can’t express how I
felt in that moment, just the best feeling.
Breaking
away after 5 minutes of hugs, I grabbed my bag and went to the main office to
calm down and chat with my principal/counterpart Mr. Pepé. I resurfaced after I felt like my
eyes weren’t so puffy and saw that all my students were still in the classroom
I left them in. I should have suspected but they were all waiting for the photo
opportunity that I had denied them for the past two years. The cell-phone photo
shoot lasted 45 minutes.
I photographed my last walk home and then sat on my porch like I would have on any other day. But this time I sat and reflected on the greatest feeling of accomplishment and pride that my students had given me that day.